Will to live

I still have a strong will to live. But my intellect is telling me I am close to going. Not because ALS is killing me, which it most certainly is. But because I am about to cross the line into a life I have no intention of living. Bed bound or wheel chair bound, my every need being done by paid care takers. Not for me. But the will to live is still strong. I find that annoying. thoughts?